Survey...strange daw..

Is your second toe longer than your first? *nope..they're the same..

Do you have a favorite type of pen? *My mood differs in which type of pen I want to use...I don't have favorites..but usually I use a 0.4 g.tech pen.

Look at your planner for March 14, what are you doing? *it already passe dude!If for next year...no plans yet...that's like, 6 months away!

What color are your toenails usually? *I want to make it simple...on it's usual and natural color...my toenails are rarely seen with color..it just really depends in my mood if I want it to be polished..

What was the last thing you highlighted? *hmmm..my handouts..of course..hehe..:D

What color are your bedroom curtains? *pink...If I had the choice, I want it to be rainbow..

What color are the seats in your car? *I think it's more like a beige color...(just don't want to admit that it looks like dirty white...hehe)

Have you ever had a black and white cat? *as in black and white color in the same cat?if that's so, yes!hehehe..

What is the last thing you put a stamp on? *hmmm..I really can't remember..

Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming? *where's that?

Why did you withdraw cash from the ATM the last time? *I always deposit...I never withdraw yet..

Who is the last baby that you held? *BABY JEMUEL CARZANO!!!and I miss him sooooo much!

Do you know of any twins with rhyming names? *hmmmm..no.

Do you like Cinnamon toothpaste? *there's a toothpaste flavored with cinnamon?if there's such thing as that..nah, I don't like cinnamons...

What kind of car were you driving 2 years ago? *I don't own a car..

Do you have any wallpaper in your house? *no, it's all painted...

Closest thing to you that is yellow: *my shirt!hehe..:D

Last person to give you a business card? *no one..

Who is the last person you wrote a check to? *no one..

Closest framed picture to you? *hmmm..I think it's 1 meter away...and my kuya's picture in his kindergarten days...

Last time you had someone cook for you? *last night..I don't cook..hehe..

Have you ever applied for welfare? *yes...but due to my busy schedule, I can't anymore..

How many emails do you have? *hmmm...I think about 2000...I don't like erasing my emails...I'm lazy doing that..

Last time you received flowers/flower? *oooh...I think, hmmmm...last february...valentines..

Do you think the sanctity of marriage is meant for only a man & woman? *technically, yes....but slowly, in our time now, same sex marriage is slowly accepted...

What are you listening to right now? *my neighbor's singing "nanghihinayang" watdahell...

Do you play air guitar? *of course yes!!hehe..:D

Do you have any Willow Tree figurines? *none..

What is your high school's rival mascot? *no mascot...hehehe..poor..

who is the last person you talked to from high school? *my best friend isay...heheh..:D

Last time you used hand sanitizer? *hmmmm..last friday..hehehe..

Would you like to learn to play the drums? *I"d love to!!that's one of the instruments I want to learn someday..

What color are the blinds in your living room? *hmmm..violet..hehee..

What is in your inbox at work? *don't have work yet..

Last thing you read in the newspaper? *my horoscope..hehehe..:D

What was the last pageant you attended? *hmmm..the Mr. and Ms. San Beda last January..hehe..:D

What is the last place you bought pizza from? *pizza hut..hehe..:D

Have you ever worn a crown? *yes..when I was young..hehe..:D

What is the last thing you stapled? *paper..heheh..

Did you ever drink clear Pepsi? *is there a clear pepsi?well, I want to try it...

Are you ticklish? *hmmm...YES!!!I have a funny bone..hehe..:D

Last time you saw fireworks? *I think that was last June..for the celebration of Independence day..

Last time you had a Krispy Kreme doughnut? *Waaaah...that's one of the things that I haven't tried yet!!!

Who is the last person that left you a message on your cell? *the president in my class..

Last time you parked under a carport? *no car owned yet..

Do you have a black dog? *we used to have one..but that dog is already dead...

Do you have any pickles in your fridge? *none..

How long have they been there?? *no pickles..

Who has the prettiest eyes that you know of? *WAAAAH!!!IT WILL BE DEFINITELY PARE!

Last time you saw a semi truck? *hmmm..the last time I've been in the streets..hehe..:D

Do you remember Ugly Kid Joe? *never heard..

Do you have a little black dress? *nope...I don't like dresses..:D

ONLINE SIYA ULET!!

NGAYONG araw na to...halos kalahating araw akong nakababad sa computer...nakatingin mata ko sa monitor..nakitipa mga daliri ko sa keyboard...at lutang ang isip ko, kakaisip...KAkaisip sa mga dapat na interpretations ng lab.results na parte ng case study namin...AT NGAYON KO SOBRANG NATANTO....ANG HIRAP NG NURSING!!masaya na ko, sa totoo lang...Napapaisip-isip na nga ko na..I'M ON THE RIGHT TRACK..Good thing I've followed them..but this hell week made me think na parang medyo, hindi ata. OH WELL, hindi naman pwedend lahat eh madali lang no? LIFE IS TOO CRUEL...and my mind is tired...nako, inaantok na nga ko..pero tatapusin ko muna tong blog na to...hindi ko na-uupdate yung ibang sites na nilalagyan ko ng blog...May duty pa ko tomorrow, hindi ko pa tapos drug study ko...di bale konte na lang naman yun e..Pero tapusin ko kung ano na nasimulan ko, sayang naman kung hindi...tatlong taon na ko dito sa kursong to, at dahil lang sa case study, MAGPAPATALO AKO? hindi naman ata tama yun.

Though I'm just letting the time pass by, in short, nagsasayang ng oras kasi nakatunganga na naman ako, imbis na dapat tapusin ko na to...hindi ko pa din matapos-tapos. Pero kahit halos kalahating araw akong Online, lumayas lang sa harapan ng computer kapag kakain, iihi, iinom, naligo...natuwa naman ako ng makita ko siyang online...Kahit nitong bandang hapon ko na siya nakita..tas nawala na naman..tas ng OL na naman nung bandang 8:30 tas nawala uli nung magna9 na..tas bumalik ule nung 9:30..atlis nakita ko siyang ONLINE!!PATHETIC??yes...kahit makita ko na ngang idle sya eh, okay lang...kahit na hindi niya ko imessage, tulad nung nakaraan..okay lang..pero mas okay sana kung imessage nya ko nu??hehehe...kahit na puro favors lang, okay lang....KAWAWA..oo na..ang hirap maging biktima ng unrequited...erm...erm...CAN I JUST NOT MENTION THE WORD??It's too scary for me to handle...and I don't know if that was it...Hindi ko nga siya nakikita, pero tamo, nung nakachat ko nga lang sya e, "dugudugdugudugdugudug" drama ko...parang nagka-angina ko sa sobrang kaba, nanlamig ako, napressure ako kahit wala siya sa harapan ko! SEE HOW CHARMING HE IS TO ME? kahit na kalokohan lang lahat..okay lang...at ang kapal ng pes kong magpost ng blog na me connect sa kanya (hindi ko na lang babanggitin pangalan nya..delikado..mabuting maging safe) ewan...bakit kaya ganun no??

AH BASTA...eto lang...MAHIRAP NURSING, LIFE IS TOO CRUEL, DUGUDUGDUGUDUG....ONLINE SIYA ULET!!!!AT KELANGAN NG MATAPOS CASE STUDY!!

adios amigos!!

(as if namang may makakabasa nito no..but if ever someone will waste their time reading this post..Arigato gozaimasu..:)))))))

Cheesy mode

I said I'll let this blog be updated right? But due to my soooo busy schedule, I don't have any time to post (actually, this day, I'm actually busy, I have tons to do, but since my mind wants to be expressed through words right now, and this mode rarely comes, so I'll let myself be drowned with the thoughts...hahaha..)
Why cheesy mode?
I don't know, actually there's (erm) no one THAT special to me right now..THAT special..Well, I used to..hehehe..I just remembered the poem I wrote years ago...I'll post it here...hoping, one day he'll read it...though I have a little chance..I'll give it a shot..(but then he'll never know he's the one I'm pertaining to..oh well, I'll let that be...though I never intended to be this cheesy, well, I'll let myself be, just for a moment I suppose...(maybe I'm on the cheesy mode right now, all the songs that were played and currently playing on the radio right now are all cheesy...now I know...)

This poem was written as I said, years ago...2 years ago, if my memory serves me right...It was dedicated to someone, I've been thinking that time, and up until now...and it seems like I'll forever think of him..(it's a 'he'...so my issues regarding me as a t is not true 'kay?)

"Maybe I should stop thinking about you"

I never thought you'll run in my mind
From time to time
Till' my mind gets tired
And go to sleep afterward

It's annoying that even in my dreams
I once again see you
Now the matter is--
The one I'll be thinking about, first thing in the morning is you

Whenever you're around-I tremble
Just to hear your name-I get so nervous
When you call me, I can't concentrate
When you tease me, I feel intimidated

Then I'll be thinking of you again
All the things that you've done to me will be on my head
I know there's a certain feeling inside me that I can't explain
It might be that..but I hope it isn't!

But then everything has changed
Just when I thought everything was okay
You left and I was broken
I don't know when will my heart mend

It's a bit regretful
I never had the chance to know you
Now what I've got to do...
Maybe I should stop thinking about you...

(I revised it a little bit....just a bit...last minute revision..hehehehe..:D)

actually, I made bunch of poems for the person behind this poem...this is the recent poem I've made for him...and it is connected from the above poem...hehehe..

"You don't know"

You don't have any idea what you've done to me
Been thinking of you so badly
You don't know how you made me crazy

It ain't feeling this way
Knowing this were one of the games you play
But see, you're circling in my head the whole day

Bursting emotions inside
Your trip I can't ride
Hopelessness I can't hide

You don't know what I'm going through
Can't help hoping you'll want me too
But I can see that possibility won't come true

Hopeful turning to hopeless
I wish I can think of you less and less
I wish it will come into my senses

I'm being desperate
Is this really my fate?
Do I really have to wait?

I don't want to be in this situation anymore
What's worth waiting for?
If I'm waiting for someone who'll never knock in my door

I wish I can really get you out in my head
I wish my heart will mend
How I wish I will...how I wish it will...how I wish you'll know...

THESE POEMS ARE DEDICATED FOR YOU PARE!!!