Cheesy mode

I said I'll let this blog be updated right? But due to my soooo busy schedule, I don't have any time to post (actually, this day, I'm actually busy, I have tons to do, but since my mind wants to be expressed through words right now, and this mode rarely comes, so I'll let myself be drowned with the thoughts...hahaha..)
Why cheesy mode?
I don't know, actually there's (erm) no one THAT special to me right now..THAT special..Well, I used to..hehehe..I just remembered the poem I wrote years ago...I'll post it here...hoping, one day he'll read it...though I have a little chance..I'll give it a shot..(but then he'll never know he's the one I'm pertaining to..oh well, I'll let that be...though I never intended to be this cheesy, well, I'll let myself be, just for a moment I suppose...(maybe I'm on the cheesy mode right now, all the songs that were played and currently playing on the radio right now are all cheesy...now I know...)

This poem was written as I said, years ago...2 years ago, if my memory serves me right...It was dedicated to someone, I've been thinking that time, and up until now...and it seems like I'll forever think of him..(it's a 'he'...so my issues regarding me as a t is not true 'kay?)

"Maybe I should stop thinking about you"

I never thought you'll run in my mind
From time to time
Till' my mind gets tired
And go to sleep afterward

It's annoying that even in my dreams
I once again see you
Now the matter is--
The one I'll be thinking about, first thing in the morning is you

Whenever you're around-I tremble
Just to hear your name-I get so nervous
When you call me, I can't concentrate
When you tease me, I feel intimidated

Then I'll be thinking of you again
All the things that you've done to me will be on my head
I know there's a certain feeling inside me that I can't explain
It might be that..but I hope it isn't!

But then everything has changed
Just when I thought everything was okay
You left and I was broken
I don't know when will my heart mend

It's a bit regretful
I never had the chance to know you
Now what I've got to do...
Maybe I should stop thinking about you...

(I revised it a little bit....just a bit...last minute revision..hehehehe..:D)

actually, I made bunch of poems for the person behind this poem...this is the recent poem I've made for him...and it is connected from the above poem...hehehe..

"You don't know"

You don't have any idea what you've done to me
Been thinking of you so badly
You don't know how you made me crazy

It ain't feeling this way
Knowing this were one of the games you play
But see, you're circling in my head the whole day

Bursting emotions inside
Your trip I can't ride
Hopelessness I can't hide

You don't know what I'm going through
Can't help hoping you'll want me too
But I can see that possibility won't come true

Hopeful turning to hopeless
I wish I can think of you less and less
I wish it will come into my senses

I'm being desperate
Is this really my fate?
Do I really have to wait?

I don't want to be in this situation anymore
What's worth waiting for?
If I'm waiting for someone who'll never knock in my door

I wish I can really get you out in my head
I wish my heart will mend
How I wish I will...how I wish it will...how I wish you'll know...

THESE POEMS ARE DEDICATED FOR YOU PARE!!!